Waiting Sucks.

So early pregnancy symptoms are my bread and butter. Today I woke up with really bad nausea. I have had my own variety of "morning sickness" (which actually tends to occur in the mornings, instead of possibly all day like in pregnancy) since my teen years. I can smell EVERYTHING, and sometimes things that probably aren't there. I crave weird ass foods. I am highly emotional and cry at episodes of Gilmore Girls. I have to pee all the time. Especially today. But it is too early for these things to be symptoms of an actual pregnancy, and seem to exist just to make me crazy. If waiting wasn't already hard enough.


In other news, a couple of nights ago I had a dream that I had a baby, but it didn't have a name or a gender or anything, and I kept forgetting to feed my featureless baby and then I would realize that it had been nine hours since the baby had eaten and I would freak out and feed it and vow never to lapse again, and then I would get caught up in reality tv or wake up from a nap and another nine hours had gone by... and I guess that sums up my fears about parenthood pretty nicely.